The second part of Teddi Mellencamp's appearance onThe Jamie Kern Lima Showpodcast dropped on Tuesday, Aug. 5 During the episode, the formerThe Real Housewives of Beverly Hillsstar addressed her alleged affair with horse trainer Simon Schroeder "To this day, does it still hurt my heart and I wonder if that's why it got cancer? Yes, like it was my payback," she said Teddi Mellencamphas broken her silence about her alleged affair with her horse trainer,Simon Schroeder. On the second half ofThe Jamie Kern Lima Showpodcast, which dropped Tuesday, Aug. 5, Mellencamp opened up about thealleged affair with Schroeder, whichfirst circulated in the newsat the end of 2024. "I've never talked about it at all, just because ofthe kids, and I've never wanted anybody to have a guarantee whether it happened or didn't happen, but what I can say is, did I do things that hurt other people? Yes," Mellencamp, 44, said. "To this day, does it still hurt my heart and I wonder if that's why it got cancer? Yes, like it was my payback," she said, referring to herstage 4 cancer diagnosisafter her melanoma metastasized to her brain and lungs. With tears in her eyes, Mellencamp said that "nothing goes without payment." "However long it was ... it was all over the press, it was everywhere. You're trying to minimize everybody's pain. You end up maximizing it," she continued. "Because now not only do you have yourself, you have your significant other, your kids, the other person's significant other, their kids." Jamie Kern Lima/YouTube https://people-app.onelink.me/HNIa/kz7l4cuf The filing, in which she also asked for spousal support as well as payment of her attorney fees from Simon, stated they were married April 14, 2024, and split on Sept. 22, 2024. The pair had a previous marriage annulled in Ventura County in February — but remarried two months later, according toUs Weekly. The divorce occurred after rumors swirled in November 2024 that Simon had an affair with Mellencamp, amid theReal Housewives of Beverly Hillsalum'sdivorce from Edwin Arroyave. Simon never commented on the affair rumors, and never responded to PEOPLE's request for comment in January 2025. Mellencamp and Arroyave were married for 13 years when shefiled for divorce on Nov. 1, 2024, citing irreconcilable differences, according to court documents obtained by PEOPLE. However, in February 2025, the divorce proceedingscame to a haltwhen Mellencamp revealed her cancer diagnosis. In the months since, Mellencamp and Arroyave remained on good terms and emphasized how they're still good friends. He haseven been by her sideas she continues to undergo treatment for cancer. Charles Sykes/Bravo via Getty "But I can say this from knowing — the wreckage doesn't happen on its own," she said, adding that "it never had happened to me." "I think I was so broken as a human being during that part of my life that I did things out of my better judgment," she said, explaining that she was "so sick." "Remember how I told you there was like months of headaches and stuff like that? I was looking for comfort anywhere I can get it," she said, referring to the "severe and debilitating headaches" she mentioned inher announcement about the brain tumors. "I felt so much pain. I felt so sick. I didn't go to the doctors. I just felt some certain kind of way. And the pain was so much that I had gotten to the point of like, almost hating waking up in the morning, which I had never been that kind of person," she continued. Mellencamp said she wasn't herself but is not going to blame her alleged actions on the fact that she was sick. "But I do think a bunch of things happened in my life all around the same time, and I had zero control of any of them. Like I just was running around like a chicken with my head cut off," she said. Courtesy of The Jamie Kern Lima Show "I always knew he'd do the right thing by me," Mellencamp said. "If he wanted to, he could still be filing and finishing this divorce off right now. But, my dad [musicianJohn Mellencamp] and family just said like, 'I don't think this is the right thing for her to be able to try to navigate right now or figure out.' It was like, 'Yeah, of course. No, we'll wait. We'll wait until she's better, and then we'll figure it out.'" Though Mellencamp called Arroyave her "ex-husband" at one point during the episode, she clarified that she doesn't "know what you call somebody you were married to, then you filed for divorce, and then you got cancer, so then everything went on hold." Never miss a story — sign up forPEOPLE's free daily newsletterto stay up-to-date on the best of what PEOPLE has to offer, from juicy celebrity news to compelling human interest stories. "To this day, I don't hate Edwin," she said, adding that she and Arroyave werestaying in the same house togetherand "don't argue." ""I just want him to be happy, and I want our kids to be happy, and I want us to be able to have a good friendship and relationship, and I don't want to do anything to hurt him," she said. "I kind of know how our marriage works." Read the original article onPeople
