We need To Talk/YouTube Nadiya Hussain opened up about the alleged sexual abuse she suffered at the age of 5 during an appearance on theWe Need To Talkpodcast on July 15 The TV chef recalled how she "vomited" after realizing she'd been abused during a sex education class Hussain also shared how she has never spoken to parents about the alleged incident Nadiya Hussainis opening up about the sexual abuse she allegedly suffered at the age of 5. During an appearance on theWe Need To Talkpodcast on Tuesday, July 15,The Great British Baking Showwinner 40, spoke candidly to hostPaul C Brunsonabout one of the most traumatic memories from her childhood. "As a 5-year-old, I was sexually abused by my cousin," Hussain alleged. "I didn't really know that that was sexual abuse until I was in my biology lesson in Year 8 [of school] and we were having a sex education class." "The penny dropped. I put the two together, and I was like, 'That happened to me,' " the TV chef continued. "I remember vomiting profusely. My teacher said, 'Are you unwell?' And I said, 'No, I'm fine.' " Hussain recalled that she kept quiet instead of telling the teacher because her alleged abuser was a cousin who was constantly around her family. "He was there all the time, and he was in our house and he was upstairs, and he was everywhere," she said. When Brunson, 50, asked how her family reacted once they found out about the abuse, Hussain revealed she's never spoken to her parents about it. "We don't talk about it," Hussain said. "Nobody talks about it. I can sit here and tell the whole world, but I cannot have that conversation with my mum and dad ever." The baker revealed her parents have never read her book, before adding that she has debated bringing up the alleged abuse she suffered in a conversation with them. "Would I like to if they were different people? Yeah," she said of talking to her parents. "I know them too well, I know that, I know what I'd be met with." Never miss a story — sign up forPEOPLE's free daily newsletterto stay up-to-date on the best of what PEOPLE has to offer, from celebrity news to compelling human interest stories. "I live in a community where the men are protected. And to be fair, we live in a society where men are always protected," Hussain continued. "And I don't want anyone to say that it was my fault, because I think that's what I'm going to hear. And I think I don't want to hear that, if I hear that I'll lose it." "What I would hate to see is, I feel like I would be blamed and he would be protected, and I just can't dig that up," she added. PBS/Love Productions / Courtesy: Everett Collection Hussain went on to reflect on being bullied at school from the ages of 4 to 17 by two boys, who she also claims attempted to sexually assault her. Elsewhere in the podcast, she shared her experience ofracismwhile growing up and the additional trauma that came with her TV fame. TheGBBSstar recalled producers having to move into her house after she received death threats and having panic buttons installed in her home that would alert police. "It's soul-destroying because somebody hates you enough to want you dead," she said. "And then you ask yourself, 'Why?' " We need To Talk/YouTube "Am I that bad? Why do you want me dead?" she continued. "I couldn't understand it, it was like I lost my faith in humanity completely." Hussain said her family now lives in a house that's overlooked by seven neighbors to feel protected. "If there are any problems, we've taught our kids to go out into the garden and shout because there will be a neighbor who hears you," she added. If you suspect child abuse, call the Childhelp National Child Abuse Hotline at 1-800-4-A-Child or 1-800-422-4453, or go to www.childhelp.org. All calls are toll-free and confidential. The hotline is available 24/7 in more than 170 languages. If you or someone you know has been a victim of sexual abuse, text "STRENGTH" to the Crisis Text Line at 741-741 to be connected to a certified crisis counselor. Read the original article onPeople
